This blog is dead ,totally dead . Including the person here too . I have already lost my mind . I dont know what im doing anymore . I lost a good friend ,someone i never wanted to lost . I had this feeling . How much i want to see you ,and i'll never get you . God punished me this time . He made me lost two people ,one my grandpa and one a friend and the worse my sister . Not has in all passed away ,just that feeling . Actually i knew somehow something is gonna happen , bad its just all too sudden . I shouldnt have done that in the first place . Is the first time i somehow i missed him . But i shall not ever again ,because its wrong . I just regretted by the way how i treat people . I wanna change badly ,very . I wanna live life like as if i will die tomorrow . Im going to miss my sister totally . Nobody there to quarrell with me , sleep with me when im scared . Even a million words cant mean how i feel . I just want today to stop going to tommorrow , the world to stop spinning , the time to stop moving .